why is tis feeling so overpowering
why am i so stupid so weak to let it go
why does love hurt so badly that i feel i no longer wanna live
u know sometime.. i just wan things to b the way it used to b 6 mth ago.. but it seems lik it will never happen that way.. i do so many thing to tell poeple that i care for them. i try to help. i try to giv them supoort for the back. but afetr month of doin so. i jus feel so used rite now. u know.. day lik this.. i jus wanna tok to u. i just need u to show u care and concern lik u did. or at least just chat to me. not as sumbody special.. i dun care about that animore. i just need u there as a fren. but u never did so.. u know.. u are so cold toward me now. u never used to say that U DUN CARE.. u never used to bring me down to my lowliest wif ur werds. but why are u doin such now. why? just tell me. u know that it hurts. i cried everyday for the pass 2 weeks. i know no one know... onli god know the tear that i have shed and the prayer i have said to make everything change to the way it was. but i know.. even till death nothing will change. coz to u. u never change.. maybe towards others u didnt change. maybe its just towards me. but WHY?? maybe its all just to take revenge on wat i have did before. maybe u jus wanna see me cry and break down. just tell me why....
i told myslef. even if the world change.. i would not shed another tear for sumbody... but im doin so even now.. my heart hurt so badly... that tear drop for every letter that i wrote here... why will tis stop.. when...
