im confused, sad, disappointed and alot more. all this felling are so jumbled up, so mixed that i do not kno what to feel and how to react. how to i overcome this feeling. why do i feel so empty inside now. why do i feel that something is missing from this pathetic life of mine. i duno know how, how to safe my from this feeling. i wan to get out of this. i wan to pretend it had never happen but i cant. i try my best to make as though that this had never happen but it can never be. u are never the same. but how can i change this i never know. i never know. i wish i prayed and i hiope for something to happen. just something. aniting that i can smile to aniting at all. but i know it can never be. it can never be.. i told myself once before. i will never mess ur life again. but i just can live wifout u near. to you im always okay.. i smile whereever i am. but most do not know. i cry in my heart. my tear are hidden from the eyes of many. onli those that realli know me. to you my tear maybe fake it maybe be nothing. coz u had nothing to loss. but i want you to know that the tear that i shed are my most sincere tear. and i lost everthing when i let you go. every single day i remembered what we used to be. i wish and i hope that we can be that way. but onli the future holds that secrect. on the 13 may of this month. i cry.. i cried my lung out coz i know that thing can never change. thing are as the way it is now. 13 may used to be the most happiest day ever. it used to be my whole life. but now its nothing. but i know deep down inside me... i rather shed my tear then shed your. none of your tears shall reach the ground coz i will, at my best, try to protect it. i know.. for i had ponder and think .. that
if love was to let go... then i ll you go.. ill let you go.. but make me your friend...
