why am i lying to myelf? y do i keep aying that i dun care animore. y do i try my very best to push u away.. y do i do all this when i know that having u far hurt me more then ever. i try to catch every glimpse of u whereever i go. i try my best to capture every moment u are near. this is all that i can do. i know that i pushed u away whenever u are near. maybe u are hurt.. or maybe u dun even care.. maybe u are happi. i would never realli knw. coz now u have change so much. i dun realli know hu i am wif now. but do know.. that the more i chase u away. the more my heart yearn for u. the futher u are. the more its hurts. but hu are u to know. u take everthing lik a joke. and hu am i to u. nobody special. furthermre, u will never lose anithing. nothing at all. u lose no feeling. u lose no love. u lose no special things.
my heart hurt to see that u feel nth, not even shame, though u r filled with broken promises.
