how does it feel to know that u are a disappoinment to the poeple arnd you?
well.. that feeling is not alien to me. from the start of my life i had been a loser, a failure, a disappoinment. somebody who just waste the space and air on earth. maybe what my late grandfather say a day before he pass aways was true. today i got a reality slap again. im a disappoinment and his werds struck me again. that "YOU ARE USELESS". that few werds are so strong that it can effect u so many year. its has been mre then about three years since he passed on. but until nw, those are the word that made me hold me everything i want to do something. those are the werds that cut me so deep. those are the words he spoke before he pass away. till now. i will aways be a disappointment. im sorri that if u dun get this lines coz my mind is clouded by emotions rite now. i cant think. i tot that maybe hes werds was wrng. i did so many thing to prove that im not useless. but indeed im am. after today i know that i am. i am useless.
random nthness
for mother fucker lik me
shut my mouth wherever i go
coz nth gud can come out of it
either shut up
or
fucking jump down a building
a werd from fikri to fikri.
