even a thousand "u will" can never cure me now.....
A mighty pain to love it is,
And 'tis a pain that pain to miss;
But of all pains, the greatest pain
It is to love, but love in vain.
Abraham Cowley
My love is of a birth as rare
As ‘tis for object strange and high:
It was begotten by Despair
Upon Impossibility.
Andrew Marvell
oh well.. wat a wonderful day. but everything was okay bah overall. arh.. 2008 didnt end that well, its was filled with stupid and idiotic incident. well few more hours till its say-goodbye-to-2008 or in short new year(wee. if u are lazy).. well. its hard to let go of all the memories of 2008.. it has though me lots of thing bout friendship, solution to problem, love and many more thing. it has been the very productive year of my entire life. well ill miss everything that 2008 has given me. but im sure that ill still have them wherever i go.. jus lik i hav my frens if u know wat i mean.(if u dont then ermmm.... haha)... well... a new year is coming. i hope this year will more things in store for me. well maybe.. jus maybe... a true love... someone that will put me above all. love me the way they love their very soul... (like i will ever find)>.<.. no way man.. thats way i think... everyone out there expect something from you but they never give back. if u say NO.. then reflect wat have u given me... or the world or a stranger jus on the road... well.. if u can think of something then its not you.. but if u cant think of someything then ermerm.. well u know wat i mean. and pls dun give me stupid answers... I KNOW... haha.. wait.. im actualli straying from the main thing hat i want to say. haha..
ohyah,, back to the thing in store for me... i hope this new year... i get to tone down my bitchy side.. arhhh... yupyup... its the freaky fact.. i dont know wat happen.. i am lik such a k9 bitch.. i so plastic now... to be realli honest i think im becoming a fucked up common materialistic p.l.u .. arhh... i so do not want to become that.. EWWWWW... no no... i will not... and i hope i can realli tone me down.. haha... out there.. my frens will be lik ARE U SURE??? dun lie coz i know wat you are thinking. well the answer to that is i hope so.. i cant promise anithing.. i cant say yes coz i cant lie to myself.. actualli i really love the new bitch.. well.. to be very very stupidly honest.. im bitchy coz i feel that it is the onli human proof well warrantied weapon that i can use to protect myslef. its lik everyone knows me right.. im a soft fucker that can be easily bullied by people. even the slightest SHUT UP or ERR or (u dun feel lik talking to me and ask a third party to ask me) will pissed me or should i say sadden me... i feel that i need to satnd up for myself. but i cant do it physically coz look at me.. one punched and ill land in the hospital in my death bed i thing.. so the onli way that i can stand up to myself and me people not step all over me is being bitchy.. if u dont lik me being bitchy to you.. maybe i can change.. but just to you.. but if you are the think not about me type.. dun even think of asking.. haha.. but i realli hope to tone down abit.. maybe ill have a somebody is im not bitchy.. hmm.. well... and maybe i judge people too much.. well i know that im not of the top standard but at least im comfortable of who i am. but i get to comfortable and start judging people do tell me.. BUT PLS TELL ME IN A NICE WAY... DONT U EVER SHUT ME UP OR ANITING..
well.... most of wat i used to wished in 08 didnt not happen. well again.. i put my hope all so high and it came crashing down. so yah. thats it.. im done for with hoping.. im aint going to hope aniting animore.. well... lik people say.. the more you hope the more you get hurt.. and the more you care... the more things come crashing down.. so yah..random nothingness:its time for me to let go....