i realli dont know wat to feel. im confused rite now... do i have to always take the initiative to go to u and talk? do i have to thicken my face to go to u everyday to say hi? i tink i will not do that animre. i have done lots of thing to make u feel that i am there for u.. but u have never seen that. wat u see is all the shit that i have done. i really dont know wat to feel animore. i keep praying that everything will be better and u will see me there. but no.. i keep feeling that u are never there. u put others nore then me. and today i feel that lot. that gift that i wanna giv u. its fer our second ann and christmas. i remembered even though u tot i did not. but u turn u face away.. and it hurt me lots. i really duno how to feel. i was stunned. my werld stopped. but i have nth to say. coz its u.. u are not me and im not u. seeing u happy wif others has make me realise that that im really nth but jus another person which u look through.. but nevermind. i will do nth but to smile.. nah.. crying will mmake me feel beeta but that doesnt solve the problem. no.. its doesnt. but i jus pray fer ur happiness. be happy wif ur frens... but if u were to come to me with a problem.. dun fear to tell me.. ill be there to listen. no promises... but ill try...
