today... everything was gng on very well... gud things until after lunch.. wel im not realli gng to say wat happen coz saying it will make it werst. well.. im nth to everybody... i said once before that happess is jus a guest in my hse. yah.. that jus happen again. sumone up there has put happiness fer me jus for a few hours. then he takes that happiness away and leave me there. wathing me as i step ahead. my life now is jus lik the recession thing. its goes way down. then rise up abit and drop again. HELL YEAH>>>!!!!!! THAT MY FUCKED UP LIFE... and now people are making me feel that im so USELESS... AND EVERYTHING BAD HAPPEN BCOZ OF ME... BAD=ME ME ME.. nth else rite... oh hus that one hu doesnt wait fer u... oh i know.. its me... hu make u sad... i know i know... its me... hus the werst fren ever... I KNOW ITS ME.... its always ME... well hell yeah... think of me as a useless fren hu makes u cry.... THINK THINK... IM GIVING U PPL THE PERMISSION TO. hu cares about wat i feel,.... hu care if i look up to find sumone to talk to and no one listen. u cares about this feeling inside me to feel treasure mre then a fren. hu care that this heart cries evrything when its look at ani one of u in sadness. hu care that this heart wan to be accepted. HU CARE..,.. hu care whenever im sad and no one to comfort me..... N O B O D Y.... woowww... im impressed with my life... wow.... someone UP THERE REALLI KNOW WAT A JOKE IS... HAH,...... i jus hope this joke will end soon and my life will come to an end.. well i had been thinking when i was walking home from dover today. should i end my life before its time????? coz it will certainly make everything better... PPL OUT THERE DUN HAVE TO BE HURT JUS BECOZ OF ME....
