i was strong fer the past 16 years....
i went though my ups and downs
but i was strong.
i manage to put my garndfathers passing as a gud thing fer him
i manage to make me think that he will be better in the werld after with his wife.
i manage to forget the painful secrecy of me.
i manage to put everthing behind.
but now...
i feel weak..
i feel weaker then troy when it was breached..
i cant do anting fer this.
i cant forget it.
i cant put this behind me.
i dunot know why
but when ever a look was set upon those glowy eyes
i fell and can never walk
i said that i was gng out of the pit that i dig.
but when i look into the light and passes the soul
i feel again.
but this time deeper
how can i not put it behind me
how can i be so weak that
i cant walk away
i know that if i go deeper into this game that we
are playing
i will certainly lose
but i cant help this feeling
this eagerness to look at somthing new
something which i hope for..
but i know
i will certainly lose....
