here im am. back to where i use to be. no mre happy though for the tym being. for me.. happiness is jus lik guests that come to my house.
they jus come, linger for a while and go.. happiness is jus they same.
they never stay especially whn it come to me. i really dont know what to feel. im afraid. afraid of feeling happiness animore. im scared. scared of putting my hope high. what am i to do...
im afraid and scared of all the things that i wanted; of all the thing that i every hope for. where am i to put those hopes, those feelings , those desire??? where??? i cant put it jus behind me coz ill keep thinking of it. but i cant keep thinking of it coz it hurts me at every angle. wat i am to do??? everyone feels it.. its onli that i feel it from a different point of view. i will never know what to do. whenever i reach to that point of conclusion or to the ending point.
my journey seems to lenghten itself. i will never get there.
i will never reach my desired end. what i can do now is pray. pray for this feeling to end. im so alone in this lonely realm.
i have lots of frens who are very caring. hu i know luv me lots.
but i dun know why. i still dun know why i am still feeling so lonely. this feeling is killing. i am wounded and salt was rubbed onto my wound. it hurt me so much that i might fall into the dark abyss that i used to be in. where self infliction rules...
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