{thIS is My BrOKEn DreAM whERe U ArE thE stAr.

Give me strenght
coz im losing it

even a thousand "u will" can never cure me now.....

A mighty pain to love it is,

And 'tis a pain that pain to miss;

But of all pains, the greatest pain

It is to love, but love in vain.

Abraham Cowley

My love is of a birth as rare

As ‘tis for object strange and high:

It was begotten by Despair

Upon Impossibility.

Andrew Marvell

Sunday, June 1, 2008

here again...

9:38 PM

here i am again today... i realli dont know what is happening to me... i spent mostly of today crying. now, my eyes are all red and swollen. am i crying for something that i have lost??? or was it due to something that i am losing.. i really do not know... im confused... is my emotion making a fool of me. isit jus that i am thinking too much... i do not know... but if i am doin the right ting, y am i feeling so down and sad. terain as im writing this,.. i do not know whats the result of my action. i feel as though you are embarrassed of bieng my friend. coz i lik to show people who i really am. but is that going to be the price of being who i am. will losing my friendship with you make evrything better. will it lessen ur shame. i do not know. i cant even think.. what i cn onli do now i cry... if life is much better without me.. do tell me... but if life is painand empty without me then i pray for a sign.. i do no know... im confused... you had been the place that i put my trust. u are more then a fren... you are a family... you know me more then my own family...but ur word that day made me thing twice... you word that day hurt me more than when my sec sch friend leave me. u said urself... that you do not want people to knw that you have me as a friends,...this is the truth... i wanted to keep this from you but keeping u cluless will be a pain for me and u... i pray that our frienship sustain but if u still think that i am embarrasing you always then i think its realli tym for me to get go of our friendship... give me a sign and an answer if you are reading this....